its ugly head to thwart my attempts to have enough energy to do life.
Aside from that, financials are looking a bit rough, but we're making
it through that ok.
Rickey is getting on my nerves with the "Yu" and "Mi" thing and just
generally being silly when I would just rather not be silly at that
moment. I'm sure many would say I would be wrong if I locked them out
of the room, but seriously. I think he is doing this just to see how I
will react to different things, but I've already explained to him
several times - using multiple examples - that I do *not* like having
people push my buttons just to see what happens if they do. I've
gotten into many a fight that way.
I'm almost sure that it's just him being passive-aggressive or worse,
but it's bothersome. I get weary of arguing about nonsense, so maybe I
should just stop talking altogether. Maybe not talking would get the
point across. Maybe I should just say "fuck everyone" and lock my room
door. Maybe I should just go apeshit on everyone one good time and let
everyone else deal with the aftermath. Maybe maybe maybe maybe maybe
maybe maybe maybe....
...well, enough of that. I only have a few more things to cover for
this entry...
I want to draw more and more often. I crave a new channel for
expression, so I am going to start comic-style drawing and channel
that into a handwritten journal. If I do that, I may drop this blog
for a while or maybe even altogether for all I know. We will find out
soon I'm sure.
Tomorrow will look a lot like today: a demo here, report there, not
much to talk about or anyone to talk to. I need to be alone more
anyway. More so that I am now for sure.
And now, at 3am, with two people that have decided to just spend the
night here impromptu without even mentioning anything about it really,
I am going to bed. Whatever. Who cares anymore?
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