This Week

I borrowed and worked and barely made it through this week. Thanks to some concrete love from people that were willing to offer ears, time, and even money, I managed to get everything paid.

Payday was just depressing.

$302 for power
$61 for cable
$118 for water
$300 for mom's car payment
$100 to help lil sis with rent
$15 for my lunch

Out of $983, I have $73.22 left and that will be less I'm sure. I'm so tired of this. I have to wait two weeks for some kind of recharge or this job to come through. God only knows when or if my roommates are going to get me their part of the utils and tent back and rent is due in another two weeks. If I still have my current job, that means it will be a payday, so I can relax that day.

I'm still bristling at the thought. I paid all the utils and twice my part of rent. What the hell? You have no idea just much this bothers me. If I didn't have my developing business I would have gone nuts long ago.

I want to help, but I'm tired of having nothing left to handle the things I need to. This is where trust is hard for me. God doesn't get his cable cut off. My landlord didn't call Him when rent was late. I've been trying and fighting so hard with ppl and I'm tired now. I'm taking today off dammit.