I think a comment from a text I recently received says it best:
If I radiate an aura in such a way that people become intimidated when I raise an eyebrow in ire, then I suppose that works. I would enjoy that a fair bit I'm sure and it would probably do ridiculous things for my ego. I would be that person because I earned it. People cross me and there are consequences and that is a well-known fact. No one crosses me because there's evidence of what happens when those lines are crossed....
Then there is the way I am now. If I'm hurt, I withdraw because I don't want to hurt anyone in return. I love freely and rarely withhold anything from anyone if I have it to give. The love I give in the way that I give it draws people to me. I appear to be the most loving, harmless man on the planet. People find safety and connection in who I am as a loving soul and because of that, they never wish to be the source of my anger or hurt, so there is no fear to be intimidated bad. They simply want there to be peace between them and I for the sake of the love between us.
Which one do I choose when I want so much of one but already possess so much of the other?
What should I do?
...Either way, it isn't interesting to have you mad at me... I'm not scared of you...This is my summary lot as far as life goes. No one is afraid of me and I've never given anyone a reason to be. At the same time, it seems that no one wants me to be mad at them. I suppose that kind of feeling will never be generated from the source I wish, but then I have to ask myself if the means matter or the ends in this case.
If I radiate an aura in such a way that people become intimidated when I raise an eyebrow in ire, then I suppose that works. I would enjoy that a fair bit I'm sure and it would probably do ridiculous things for my ego. I would be that person because I earned it. People cross me and there are consequences and that is a well-known fact. No one crosses me because there's evidence of what happens when those lines are crossed....
Then there is the way I am now. If I'm hurt, I withdraw because I don't want to hurt anyone in return. I love freely and rarely withhold anything from anyone if I have it to give. The love I give in the way that I give it draws people to me. I appear to be the most loving, harmless man on the planet. People find safety and connection in who I am as a loving soul and because of that, they never wish to be the source of my anger or hurt, so there is no fear to be intimidated bad. They simply want there to be peace between them and I for the sake of the love between us.
Which one do I choose when I want so much of one but already possess so much of the other?
What should I do?
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