The climax is always at the same part and the line there is simple, "I do need all of you; please, help me..." After this statement, the heroine gathers the strength to defeat the bad guy (or evil queen in this case).
It's always that line: I do need all of you; please, help me.
I want that life and there are so many moments that I feel that this one thing -- this bond they have -- is so unattainable. It's just out of my grasp. In the wavering to and for amid so much, well, falsehood, I want to believe I have friend that I could count on to lend me strength like that. People that, no sooner do I say, "...please, help me..." I see hands reaching.
I've tried to be that and, while I'm not perfect or even near it, I've been the guy whom everyone feels they can borrow from when they need it most whether money, a listening ear, an open hand... anything. I don't mind that; in fact, it is a joy to me.
The thing I want and can't seem to get is what I give. I suppose most people don't think I need it; I seem well so I must be well. That couldn't be further from the truth and it seems to be a general trend that this is something about which it is better to remain blissfully unaware.
I want the magic that I know friendship is. In a sense, I want the bond I see between these anime people. Some of my getting choked up is seeing the scenes but a lot of it is also being saddened with the reality that this is something I'm unlikely to experience in the way they do. It seems so much fuller. So much more whole. It would never cross their minds to wonder if the people around them will be anything less than loyal and loving. I want that assurance. That lack of doubt. Even a little less.
The good thing is that, long ago, I learned that faith -- and not sight -- is the thing I must live by. That said, a man has only so much faith to his measure. How long do I walk with a surety of what I don't see before it clearly appears to me. At the same time, faith demands that I never get more than a glimpse of the object of my faith.
Is that my doom? Will I never know any more of friendship than the moments I wish for you to never part from me? The parts where we laugh and have fun and entertain and have the deep meaningful conversation? Is there more somewhere? Can I have that bond for which my heart beats? That I crave? It seems that I must not. Can not. Will not. Not in full. Not completely. Not now.
So where does that leave me? Probably with sappy cartoon clips and a longing for bonds that only fantasy has the power to create. A picture. A form to hold in mind, but never the concrete reality of those imaginings.
Even so, I dream that I will enjoy that fellowship one day even if that day isn't during my earthly lifetime.
Amen brother! I hear you on that.
ReplyDeleteYou know, Abraham walked in faith his whole life, longing for a promise God had made to him. He did not live to see the fruition of that promise, but his descendants have benefited from it. Moses also never got to see the promised land.
Even with that possibility though, I believe it is better to live life with that longing and hope, than to not even know about it's possibility. You will get that fellowship one day, and this earthly life will only seem a vapor in hind-sight.
Don't give up hope my friend. I think most of what we get here is snippets of what is to come. It's just so dark, cloudy and hard to see here. One day all the pollution will clear up, and a bright new world will be available for all His children.