I'm writing to tell you I haven't written in a while. In about 10 days, it would have been a month since I've written anything about my thoughts and feelings. Instead, the storms inside are being externalized little by little. I was on a search, if you recall, for an answer to a particular fear of mine. For all of my searching, I'm not sure that I've found it. However, in all of my searching, I realize that the search is worth it as are the bruises and scraped knees. Little by little, I am going forward and learning that I have resources in hidden places.
I don't know when I will write again or if I will for now. I will tell you that it is very very hard not to do so; this is one of few safe places I know. I struggle against my urges to come here for the safety of expressing my whole self. While that may be healthy, this shouldn't be the only place I feel that I can find that, so I will continue looking for other places and seeing what I run into.
In the meantime, if you are reading this, I hope you are well.
I don't know when I will write again or if I will for now. I will tell you that it is very very hard not to do so; this is one of few safe places I know. I struggle against my urges to come here for the safety of expressing my whole self. While that may be healthy, this shouldn't be the only place I feel that I can find that, so I will continue looking for other places and seeing what I run into.
In the meantime, if you are reading this, I hope you are well.
I am well enough :) Learning to lean on the Lord for what I need... I suppose learning through hardships. I hope you continue to make discoveries wherever your search leads. Like life, it is the journey that is important, and how you conduct yourself on this journey. "Trust in the Lord and He will direct your paths." He will help you find what you're looking for, and you will probably find it in Him anyway. I hope you feel you can turn to me also whenever you need me. I know I don't call or text a lot, but that doesn't mean I don't care. It's good to know that if we do need each other, we will be there for each other. It's also nice to know that in the end there will be nothing to separate us from "the Love of God," which I think includes the love we have found in other people. There will be nothing to separate us in the end.
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