I can't seem to win for losing... and a theme....

The theme of the month was supposed to be "Perspective" where you take a look around you and take in where and who you are, but in the craziness and frustration that has been this particular month, I haven't been able to post that.

I'm dealing with an issue with a friend. This friend is upset with me - and understandably - about something I did. Mind you, I have no problem with taking steps to apologize and make amends, but he hasn't said a word to me about it and will not do so. I know about the reason now thanks to another common friend, but of course, since he was told not to mention it to me, I am not allowed to bring it up until it is mentioned by the person who is actually upset with me.

So that's where I am and I am so angry about that it is draining my energy. I almost fell asleep twice while eating a sandwich. This is bullshit.

Maybe I should just run away from everything for a while and let things and people go. I'm already making enemies, so what's a few more? Just watch everything fall apart and burn to the ground and let that be that, right? Right?

Right...

FML.

theme seven: one by one

Having spent June looking at where you have come from and where you are now, the next thing to do is.....

TAKE THE NEXT STEP.

Don't hesitate. Don't get yourself a reason to do something else or to wait until a better time.

It doesn't have to be dramatic or large or announced. Just do something.

theme of the june: meditation

We've been focused and trailing momentum. Take some time to back off and look at how far we've gone. Take a look at the whole picture or as much of the scene as you can take in. Be still. Slow down. Take a breath.

Remember to keep the other themes running as well.

• finish things that we've started if you are at an ending point.
• eliminate unnecessary things.
• start new things if something needs to be started. don't be afraid to take a new road if the one you are on isn't going anywhere.
• focus
• take the momentum and follow through
• take time to step away and measure progress. running without direction gets you two things: tired and confused.

My First Appearance / Theme of the Month

As per the owner's request, I will be posting. I was referred to in an earlier post.

In any case, here's the run-down:

• there was an issue of puppies he mentioned some time ago. One of the puppies (Nomi) was recently discovered to have Parvo. He probably would have paid the $800 to have the puppy admitted, but didn't have it. Hell, I might have, too. Oh well, don't have it and can't do much about it. This will put people in a sucky mood for a while. They should have been more thoughtful about their dog. Hopefully the other puppy (Audrey) will be ok. The other guys... B and M... plan on having her put to sleep this afternoon since they don't want her to suffer. At least they though enough of her to avoid having her suffer.
• work is fine.
• marquis is making vids. they're on youtube. he made them for a friend in california. they're okay. watch em if you want whenever he posts the link. i won't bother.
• home is okay. I got to the room and chill out since being around people is taxing.
• i've fought most of Marquis's friends this week as they they neither understand nor like what I am. Oh well.
• One of Marquis's friends has been doing something and is in the final stages of winding it down. Read about it on his blog.

As for the theme for the month, the theme is Momentum. Last month, we had focus. Marquis would have gone on and on about it, but basically speaking, since you had a good month of putting out effort to accomplish whatever, don't drop the ball.

Later.

Theme Four: Focus

The tide continues to roll as the themes progress. Last month's theme of starting anew has passed into the background as a new theme takes the forefront.

This month, we will be working on focus. Take the time to think about anything you have started or currently existing issues and put all of your effort into realizing goals and visions. Put one foot ahead of the other and whatever you do, don't turn your head. Rearview mirrors aren't good for driving forward, just changing lanes.

As an aside, I will be updating the blog a little more as I have been thinking to the point of overflow lately and need somewhere to drop off the excess thoughts.

Theme Three: Start Anew

If you have been following the themes for this year, then you will note that the previous one was eliminating the unnecessary. Now that we have the clutter (or most of it) removed from our lives, we find ourselves in a new place to discover, try, and move into new territory.

This month is a month of many new things. Where I live, the weather will break so that the average temperature will be between 60-70F from here on. The first day of spring (or vernal equinox) will also be in this month (the 20th to be precise) marking the shortening of the night and the lengthening of the daylight.

Take advantage of the time to finally get out of the house and take a walk on a new trail or run for a few miles. Be like the plants whom, after storing so much within themselves, are preparing to burst forth with life.
I hope to get back to the gym and work on freerunning a bit more among other things. What about you?

Theme Two: Eliminating the Unnecessary

The theme for last month was finishing if you have been following. You can find those observations in these entries:

• what i learned
• what happened
• walk with me

This month has been very much of a finishing one. Certain things about me are becoming more solid and defined -- many things, actually. However, that's beside the point. The primary thrust of this month in which there are still so many new things was closure. Bringing things to completion or an end or some kind.

That focus is now being shifted to that of Eliminating Unnecessary Things. This month will be hardest for most people connected to me because during these moments, I tend to be more detached emotionally, more analytical and attentive to details (especially small ones), have a broader focus of mind... just to name a few things that will be different about me this month.

If you are following, then here is the challenge for the month: if it doesn't help you in the present or the future, get rid of it. Many people believe that it cannot be known whether things will help in the future or not, but the birthday cards you have had for years, the clothes you still haven't worn, the dishes you don't use, and that old hookup from three years ago on your facebook could all be safely done without.

Search things out in your life, find out what should go and what should stay. Think less about others and more about yourself. Remove as much junk from your life as you can. Honestly, this will be one of my favorite themes this year; now that I'm done tying off the looser ends, I can clear things out and start new.