sleeping and wet

Brett came over last night and we watched bleached. During this time, varying people passed through my room. One of those was RM. He said nothing. I think I nodded or something, but then again who knows? I've failed to even notice anymore. We poke each other on facebook and go on with our day I guess. He's not home and it's like 4AM. Who knows when he'll be home? Anyway, he looked lost. I didn't say anything and he asked us if we moved Baranda's car (we didn't), then went away.

Sigh. I lost that one I think. I just don't know what to make of it. We talk (usually because I go to him) and make a plan to better our friendship and then he does what he does or gets mad and decides not to pursue the idea. I don't know. In some ways, I don't know what to think about this, but I'm sure I think of it more than he does. Sucks to be honest, but I can't do anything about it at this point except wait. In a sense, I'm just a friend at his convenience. I just don't get how someone can think they possess a great relationship that they don't even put foundational time into. Like I said: at his convenience.

Brett started talking to me in my sleep and apparently I respond. Talking aloud in my sleep has always been a bad sign to me and I seem to be doing it even more often in the last three months than I have in the last ten years. I don't even know what I talked about. That's just sad. I can't think about this on a conscious level and my subconscious has already absorbed and processed it all.

Aside from this, there are the other matters at hand.

Potential job interview strikes again. I wish someone would just make up their mind and hire me. I can't make heads or tails of this most of the time. I go from thinking I have something to not having anything to... who knows? A couple of weeks left until bills are due. Bah. Not looking forward to that whatsoever. Not at all. I'm ready for a few changes. Quite a few, actually. I suppose that leads to the next item.

People come and people go, but for now they are going. MR is about to be gone. I have plenty of reflecting to do on that time and a lot of time to reflect on. I have to wonder if anything substantial has come of the time we have spent together, but I'm content to -- in a sense -- pretend that everything is fine/okay/"sunshine and sprinkles"/etc.

Finally, I decided to take some more pictures for the series. This is more for one person than anyone else, though... Truth be known, I only post these pictures for one person.



Yay for pictures immediately after a shower. I didn't really know whether to follow that thought or not, but why not, right? So 40-60 pictures later, I found two that I halfway liked. I really need a camera with a higher resolution. Maybe a better zoom for catching fine details like water drops.



This one came out a bit better because of the folds -- you can actually notice this is a towel. All of that said, comment if you like it. As you could also guess, I posted this on my dA. After posting this, I read through some of the site policies. This is the first time I have ever had to give a warning to view my work. It has a [nudity] warning because my nips are in the picture. Wow. Totally out of control. God has to be laughing at the silliness as I think "I have to be in complete rebellion right now..."

Oh well. Enjoy the view. I tried to make it enjoyable.