At one point, I looked through everything I could have done differently. I thought that it was my fault. Mine more so than yours because I was too stringent. Too strict. I always did wonder whether or not I was just too much of this thing and that.
You know what? I really could have done things differently. I really could have. However, after everything that happened Tuesday and Wednesday, I have come to a conclusion about some things that leaves me very relieved. The biggest thing was that, all variables included, everything would have turned out exactly the same. There was no need to do anything different at all. Summarily speaking, it was an issue of sooner or later.
I have to laugh. I thought it would have been the greatest single regret of my life not to have gotten together with you, Dani. I really wouldn't have allowed myself anyone else thinking that I was meant for just you. That spot would have easily remained there for the rest of my life. Seeing things happen as they have, though, has given me a gift. Just as you are going to do so in your own way, I will let you do what you wish so to do.
You are free to leave; I release you. If you want, you can cut me out of your life completely. I am thankful for the lessons that you taught me. I can promise that you will always be remembered. Whatever affections I have given to you are yours to keep always. What remains, I will give to the next person I love.
As for you, find someone that makes you happy. Learn to compromise. Love sacrificially as I'm sure you have and will find the strength to do again for someone wonderful. Make wise decisions and take responsibility and control of your life and its direction. I love you and I will always. I'll not be cruel enough to keep you when you wish to go, so take care. I go my way in peace.
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