12 November 2009

blur....

This week has been a veritable blur. I had a random argument with my roommate who, in typical fashion, was dramatically upset about making the rent this month because of cash flow problems. After the exchange we had, stupid as it was, I solved the problem hours later and actually had money left over without breaking my budget.

Then, to top things off, RM said he wished that things were the way they used to be. To review, I didn't change shit. I have witnesses: he chose to drop me for the new shiny thing and didn't come back for months...

No, you don't get sympathy from me.

No, you can't just pick up where we left off.

Whatever.

On top of that, there was a small bit of job drama. I called them to find out what the status on my application was and found out that they had a job orientation that night. Are you serious?! I'm glad I called. I made it there with exactly one minute to spare and I think I'm in love. Can't wait until the first day of work. :D

I had a moment with a friend today that was borderline magic...

...on second thought, throw out the borderline...

They were just here in the room (had a few friends over this week, actually) while I was facedown on the bed checking facebook and other random mail. They decided they wanted a hug at that time and laid on top of me to hug me while reading this thing and that over my shoulder. i actually had things on screen that I wanted them to see, so that worked, but at the same time, I just enjoyed being held. It was a warm and welcomed feeling...

...and this is just friendship. I must admit, at times, I get hard thinking about what my lover and I will share when the time comes. It's moments like this that make me feel most connected to others. Intimacy. Not sex, but intimacy. That's what we are missing out on trying to get all of the sex and everything else... at least, that is what I see.

What a day... u_u

I'm also wondering about people and their... maybe I should leave that thought out of this entry...

As a happy ending note, I had this posted on my facebook. Normally, I skip this stuff, but I think this needs to be seen. This is a nice song even if you don't speak Korean... :D



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