I find myself, in the midst of a lot of changes, becoming angrier with every passing day.
I mean, really angry in general. Not a passing feeling, but an angry person. Maybe I'm tired. Maybe I'm broken. Mostly, I think it's just my turn.
Tired of being talked to in crazy ways and being buffeted here and there. As much as I strive to imitate Him in my own crappy way, I am not the Son of God and the limits of my patience are shorter than His own by far.
That said, things that only garnered grunts, heavy sighing, or rolling eyes before now receive angry, confrontational yells. My thoughts become murderous at a much faster rate. Things like this happen. I almost fought with a friend this weekend because I was so pissed off at him for waking me up (mind you, I only had 3.5 hours of sleep) because I just wanted to be left alone....
I feel that way a lot more now. I just want to be left alone period. That and... dark.
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