It's just one of those days.
As per a few decisions I've made, I've decided to avoid sarcasm as much as I can for the next few [indeterminate time here]. Aside from that, I've been in a more serious mood in general. Very somber, actually. The problem is that as I change, those around me do not always catch the wave. So now, while I am being more serious and less "lighthearted" in general, I get a ton of "why are you being like that, you know i'm only joking" questions.
I can't even deal with that right now. I'm serious because that is where I am and I can't be jovial when I'm not... well... jovial. That's not who or where I am right now. I try to understand people where they are. Of course, this doesn't always go well.
For instance, I have a friend that is having an acne issue and freaking out. I point out to him that freaking about the situation will only cause more stress and as a result of the stress, more complications with the acne. As a result of my pointing this out, he decides to explain to me why it is difficult to do the things that he knows he should do....
I don't care. You speak a problem out loud, I give you the simplest of solutions and what you tell me is that "it's just difficult to do the things you know to do". Of a truth, this is the most common pitfall of mankind, but I refuse to let this be an excuse; if I fail, it is because I don't do something and that is that. Giving myself a reason that things are the way they are and not trying to change them ultimately weakens me in a way I do not wish.
I'm tired of trying to make the effort to talk to people about things that they are not trying to hear. I guess had to be what Jesus felt like for 30-something years and it sucks. Why do I bother talking when no one is listening?
Hell, you're probably not even listening.
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