goin hard

This is what my net friend said: "You go hard!!! Everytime."

The statement previous to that exclamation was this:

in any case, as usual, "hey i'm here if you want to talk or whatever. if you're up to any other stuff like cam or whatever i'm up for that too just let me know when you're free yes you have to tell me because if i tell you when i want to you usually have other things going on ok thanks"

it's usually the same thing that i say other than "if you want to [insert what you want to do here], then make time/space/whatever in order to do it. it's easy to say you can't, but when you want to do something, you do it bottom line."

you could take those two things and record me saying them and play them back because most of the time when you have time to talk to me this is all that i end up saying.

After that statement, however, I said this:

yep. i believe in being real. if you care about someone, that's what you do. you go hard. you make time for them. in short: you show that you care about them. you turn other people off for a while. etc.

That is how I feel. No sugarcoating it. It's something I'm doing a lot of lately. I'm tired of sugarcoating things. I hardly even think about other people's feelings anymore. I'm just as likely to blow your head off your shoulders as much as say hello and that's how things have gotten.

Deal with it.