blossoming

That seems to be where things are.

My friendships are blossoming. I got people out of the house. We have new people in the house. They are nice, wonderful, respectful, chill. I like them. The cats like them. James likes them. Reza and I are becoming closer. James and I are making new futures for ourselves. All of these things are nice. I'm shedding a few people here and there, but new connections are forming and old ones are deepening. I am enjoying the process.

My job is blossoming. I am assuming more responsibilities and with that assumption of responsibility, I find myself rising to meet those challenges and becoming an indispensable part of the operations of the company. People ask for my input, leave important tasks for me to do, and even let me lead whole training sessions for the sales team. They want to move forward and want me to be there the whole way. I couldn't be happier.

My love life is starting to take a small seed now. I have a girl I like. This has been a hard thing to work around; they have issues with some of the photo albums I have on FB (the bromance album) and so on. They also know that I have a standing curiosity about relationships with guys. To be clear: yes, I have wondered about it from time to time.

And yes, I still do.

That aside, it's just a part of me that, as I told her, she will have to except. The curiosity exists. It won't be satisfied without experimentation and I'm just going to skip that step. I don't see a need to get into that nonsense right now. She's afraid (although she won't say it) that I'll suddenly just go "okay, I'm gay...." My thing is, I won't know until it happens. No need to flip out about it. For now, I've decided to follow a path to being in a relationship with her. I thought about it... to the point of overthinking it and decided to stop overthinking and just jump.

I told her how I felt, we had a long conversation. And another. She's falling in love and I'll be waiting when the descent is over. We'll see what's up sooner or later.

Finally, my experiences are expanding. I went to my first musical tonight. I went to see the Legally Blonde musical with Whit and Kelsey. I laughed, I compared, I sang along and tried not to dance. I took pictures of the t-shirt I bought during the musical; I'll add them to the post later when I get the camera cable. I love the t-shirt.

In case you think that I'm just romanticizing the experience:

• Vivian could have been played a bit better. She got the flat voice down, but not the snarky personality.
• Someone almost tripped skipping rope.
• Some of the lines were skipped, or changed. Most of it was funny.
• Some parts of songs were held out too long. Others not enough.

They did a good job, though. It was amazing and I loved every second of it.