Amazement

What I find absolutely amazing every single moment of everyday is our lack of awareness.

James just asked if I was okay. I haven't been okay for weeks but this is the first time it's ever been asked. I said no. He asked if it was "one of those days". I replied "two or three weeks".

Rickey just said hello and hugged me. He's sans clue as well.

Everyone is.

I don't understand how someone could be so far gone that they are completely unaware of how their actions impact other people. I haven't been okay for a while but today there is sensitivity to that fact.

The sad thing that, I don't wan that sensitivity now. I don't want to be thought of or cared about. Being left alone is just fine. That's what I'm turning into.

Although it shouldn't surprise me, I still find myself shocked when people are so ties up in their own affairs that they lack even the most basic of empathy.

It's not like I'm entirely silent about my issues; they're in some form on facebook twitter and the rest almost all the time and still nothing...

Today is magically different somehow...

Whatever. I'm going to silently supposed Rickey by being here and I am going to enjoy the 3.5 mi walk home later when that time comes.

Now to make it until then.