In My Own Mind

I'm looking around in my own mind and what I find is pretty interesting material. I'm going to write it down in bullet form.

• I need to explain things even less than I do now.
• I need to check the laundry from last night. One moment...
• Having checked the laundry and found it dry, I will now need to put the clothing away. One moment...
• I wonder if I should separate the minimalism stuff in my blog from the other stuff... Nah, that's stupid.
• I need to get back to my reading.
• I'm looking forward to thursday now that I have some dietary ideas that will help me get to my goals and make sense.
• I really want a hug. Cuddle time would be unspeakably fantastic right now.
• I want to be left entirely alone. I think it would be good for me to have that kind of disconnect. That's probably a bunch of negative emotions talking, but it's there in my mind, too.
• I need to sort through my magic cards today.
• I need to get rid of stuff. I don't accumulate much, but I always have something I want to get rid of. This month, I acquired one shirt.
• I don't know how to feel about him still and somewhere in here, I know that I never will. I will have to choose to do loving things every time we speak or meet and that is going to be my cross to bear.
• There is too much going on next weekend. AWA, a wedding, and my mom wanting to take family pictures.
• I don't want to see Prince next weekend. I'm still upset with him.
• My blogs this week are going to suffer because I refuse to write without being inspired and I'm not that right now.
• I want to practice my kata. It was nice to walk through it briefly yesterday and see how much I was able to remember; I missed two steps, looked up what I thought I forgot, and realized I missed nothing.
• I want to take everything off of my wall. However, it is important that I have those things there; some things motivate me.
• I want to run away from everything and everyone and not even turn my head to see what I left.
• Guys suffer from deeped-seated fears and insecurities just as much as, if not more than, any girl I've ever met in my life. The fact we pretend otherwise is stupid.
• I need to just eliminate stupid people from my life. All of them. I don't even care what the reason is. I want jazz and intelligent, light-hearted convo where we still know how to laugh.
• I need to reconnect to the Family. I miss them. I wish they weren't so hard to deal with at times.
• I want to go Home. Like now. Even if I'm not allowed in the front door.
• Why do people keep telling me, "Hey, I'll call/hang" and not do this? I'd rather not be told and have you randomly show up than to wait for your call or appearance and not have you there. Overall, consistency is nice.
• I hate facebook... and g+... and twitter right now, but I love the people they connect me to.
• Rickey makes me mad the way he goes about doing things. That's incorrect: I allow myself to become irritated and his life happens to give me things to focus that irritation toward rather frequently. Even then, this isn't entirely accurate; I only become irritated for a moment, then it settles back down into cool apathy and I neither think nor feel anything more about the situation. That's who he is and how we are. When he wants to speak to me, even from his bedroom which is adjacent to my room, we speak on facebook. I don't even care enough to alter that.
• I'm going to do something else now.
• I want to dance physically, but my soul does not want this.

End trans.