Leave As Untitled

I really should leave this post as untitled because I just don't feel like titling it now.

• Calling and texting doesn't seem to register. I guess the message is not being gotten.
• The need to delete has reappeared. I am going with this flow.
• I need to eliminate more noise with every passing day.
• I want to do my kata a couple of times before bed. It felt good to do yesterday. Really good.
• I don't really care about the book that I've taken a break from reading, but I need to finish.
• I love Sailor Moon. This is why.
• I would like to meet this person one day. This is why.
• I don't know why people care so much about the upcoming changes with FB and I've heard everything and then some. While there may be some drama here and there, especially with the unexpected side effect of the timeline feature, the more painful fact is that the people I've unfriended and that have unfriended me simply don't care about me and whether I'm their friend or not. I've unfriended almost 100 people and out of all of those people, only 10 of them, if that, have even noticed. Social networks have a way of making us think a lot more of ourselves and the things we share than we need to. We need perspective.
• I value relationships more than I need to. I take them very personally. I have to be careful to exercise a great deal of restraint in order to avoid getting overemotional when people don't text me or call me when I feel that the connection we share would imply that these things would happen. I need to think a lot less of these connections and/or allow other avenues I avoid thinking because they are "negative"/cynical/depressing as they may be closer to the truth of things than I think. At this point, as I observe surroundings, it would be safe to say that, even in the way I try to keep things minimal, that excess and even superfluous things have crept in. Not wishing to let go of my idea or hold on to a feeling a little longer, maybe I have failed to realize it's absence to start with. I must backtrack and return to roots and not be shaken by this. People come and go as they please and so can/do I. If, in that process/time, that person comes back to find that I am not where they left me or vice versa, then maybe it was time to move on anyway and they know it subconsciously. What of that am I in control of? None of it.
• I think I want to work a little bit less for a bit, then work really hard from here on. I need to take inventory, shed a few things, breathe, pray, and start moving. Towards some things. Away from others. No permission either way.

I'd write more -- and there is a lot more to write -- but I'm going to sleep instead.