"Don't tempt me..."
Moments later
"Okay, tempt me."
Nope
Last night was interesting as I have a bunch of newness coming in the form of roommates and such. I helped move things for hours.
I've noticed that, when people come into my life and mention people, those people are drawn exactly to where I am. When those people mention people, they are drawn to where I am. I could list a pretty specific example, but I won't. Just know that my soul has a Siren's call built into it.
Star Children.
Indigo Children.
Rainbow Children.
Names are interesting things and so is most of life when I take it into account. My first name, where I was born, the nature I contain. It's all a song still being sung, most of which people came in for at the end of the fifth chorus.
There's fewer things that are as hurtful as dishonesty. Today, I talked to a friend about something. They said they were fine the day before, but today I find out that it was because of fear that this was even said. I was as forthright as I could be about it all (which meant I was totally forthright) because I believe speaking the truth allows grace and healing to enter and fix situations. The situation was resolved in no time at all by just speaking the truth.
What hurts me, however, is that the dishonesty happened in the first place. No matter what the reason, the fact is that I could have really hurt this person without knowing or meaning to because they were too afraid to simply say, "That really isn't okay with me, don't do that please."
Just speak the truth. There's little, if any, reason not to. Ever.
Now, I'm upset. Yes, they know I'm upset because I told them. I told them exactly how I felt and then I came here to write it all down to process. When you have friends or lovers and anyone that wants to love you well, can I please just ask you for their sake and mind not to lie to them ever?! It's easier to love people and be there for them when they are honest with the people around them.
Honestly, I don't care how dark the feeling is or how well-founded the fear. I'm a being of warmth, light, and fire, but I've been in the dark too. I'm not afraid of your darkness no matter what can/can't describe it as. I will shine like gold on the sea of that darkness and love you in the middle of that shit because I'm built to endure and outlast darkness for eternity and eternity and eternity to come.
Finally, I'm feeling very feral today. Sharply so. I need my commune time. I miss people big time. I haven't even seen my sunrise today yet. I feel like half my day is missing. I'm hungry.
blagrrrrawrdammit.
Moments later
"Okay, tempt me."
Nope
Last night was interesting as I have a bunch of newness coming in the form of roommates and such. I helped move things for hours.
I've noticed that, when people come into my life and mention people, those people are drawn exactly to where I am. When those people mention people, they are drawn to where I am. I could list a pretty specific example, but I won't. Just know that my soul has a Siren's call built into it.
Star Children.
Indigo Children.
Rainbow Children.
Names are interesting things and so is most of life when I take it into account. My first name, where I was born, the nature I contain. It's all a song still being sung, most of which people came in for at the end of the fifth chorus.
There's fewer things that are as hurtful as dishonesty. Today, I talked to a friend about something. They said they were fine the day before, but today I find out that it was because of fear that this was even said. I was as forthright as I could be about it all (which meant I was totally forthright) because I believe speaking the truth allows grace and healing to enter and fix situations. The situation was resolved in no time at all by just speaking the truth.
What hurts me, however, is that the dishonesty happened in the first place. No matter what the reason, the fact is that I could have really hurt this person without knowing or meaning to because they were too afraid to simply say, "That really isn't okay with me, don't do that please."
Just speak the truth. There's little, if any, reason not to. Ever.
Now, I'm upset. Yes, they know I'm upset because I told them. I told them exactly how I felt and then I came here to write it all down to process. When you have friends or lovers and anyone that wants to love you well, can I please just ask you for their sake and mind not to lie to them ever?! It's easier to love people and be there for them when they are honest with the people around them.
Honestly, I don't care how dark the feeling is or how well-founded the fear. I'm a being of warmth, light, and fire, but I've been in the dark too. I'm not afraid of your darkness no matter what can/can't describe it as. I will shine like gold on the sea of that darkness and love you in the middle of that shit because I'm built to endure and outlast darkness for eternity and eternity and eternity to come.
Finally, I'm feeling very feral today. Sharply so. I need my commune time. I miss people big time. I haven't even seen my sunrise today yet. I feel like half my day is missing. I'm hungry.
blagrrrrawrdammit.
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