Before I start writing, allow me to say that I am very angry - not upset, but angry - about the topics I am about to express. That said, I've decided to express myself without cursing in the writing.
My mind is another matter, of course.
First thing: I am angry with the decisions James is making. He has a new girlfriend. In mere moments, he's already fallen into foolishness related to this girlfriend. He had a dog. This dog is a puppy. He was simply going to "get rid of" the dog because the new girl he likes stated she liked pitbulls more than the breed he had.
Are you kidding me?
He totally went for it. If not for his roommate taking a liking to this puppy, this puppy would have been without a home. Just because of the opinion of one girl. I cannot express my displeasure with this in strong enough words. Moreover, his relationships are being rent into tatters. Does he care? No. Not at all. No texts, no contact, nothing. He's also dropping long-time friends because his new girlfriend demands this. I'm not a fan. It was not long ago that he had a girlfriend that had him give up all of his friends. Three years max. It seems he has seen much in that time, but has learned nothing. So he goes about burning bridges knowing that he will need them in the future. There is no one worth chasing at the cost of all of your previously existing relationships. Period.
Second thing: I am angry at Morgan for lying. He stated he would be studying this weekend. I asked what. I note that my gift is discernment (among others); I understand the truth and it doesn't take long for me to pinpoint a lie. He's studying. I ask what. No response. This happens for a while. He's avoiding the subject. He simply states he has a lot of books that he wants to study. It irritates me because my... friend (?)... of multiple years (now 5) continues to be vague and circumspect with me knowing that (1) I dislike it and (2) I will find out anyway because someone else in the circle will slip up or God will simply just reveal the truth of what's happening; most times without my even asking.
He's been going through decisions with spiritual things. He's decided for the moment - I don't know how long - to pursue a Wiccan path. I have spoken to him about this. He knows enough to make decisions for himself. He left work because of an anxiety attack related to this about which I said, "You need to consider what is happening as a warning; your choices are not without consequences."
Instead of telling me what he was doing plainly, I had to just know somehow. It offends me that he's not directly truthful. It offends me that I have to rely on the Holy Ghost to reveal to me what should not even be kept hidden in the first place. I'll be praying about this later once I can get myself together, but right now, I'm just angry and hurt that I'm being lied to by my friend. What friend lies to you outright? Ducks and hides? Isn't truthful?
I'm mad that I even have to ask.
So tonight, I made my anger known. I simply stated I'm angry. I will probably be so for days. I don't know how long and I don't even know if there will be a relationship when this anger passes because I just don't feel like being friends with people that can't be honest right now. I can't.
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