You know, when I think about it, I'm going to spend a lot of time this year writing about things in past tense. Especially relationships. I already got a taste of this last night when I went out to dinner with a friend.
I thought you two were friends. I did, too. I'm sure we were.
I thought you liked each other. We did.
I thought we were close. We were.
I thought I could trust you. You could before.
I'm already tired and upset thinking about it and yet it stands before me as inevitable as Monday coming tomorrow morning.
On days like today, I really wish that I could die in my sleep and just be done with this. I'm tired, tired, tired of all of this and it won't get better.
I have to wonder if part of my word for the year being "Stay" was to stand back and watch people just walk out of my life or drop off of the planet. That has to be the only reason considering what I'm seeing now. In the end, I'll just do what I've always done: keep going like nothing is bothering me and attempt to save or salvage nothing.
I thought you two were friends. I did, too. I'm sure we were.
I thought you liked each other. We did.
I thought we were close. We were.
I thought I could trust you. You could before.
I'm already tired and upset thinking about it and yet it stands before me as inevitable as Monday coming tomorrow morning.
On days like today, I really wish that I could die in my sleep and just be done with this. I'm tired, tired, tired of all of this and it won't get better.
I have to wonder if part of my word for the year being "Stay" was to stand back and watch people just walk out of my life or drop off of the planet. That has to be the only reason considering what I'm seeing now. In the end, I'll just do what I've always done: keep going like nothing is bothering me and attempt to save or salvage nothing.
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