productive day...

...but always with it's own drama inserted.

I never catch a break. Oh well.

This morning, I headed off to an appointment that had rather interesting results. As a result of this appointment, I ended up going to the bank to cash my check. Instead of cashing the check, I left with a brand-spanking-new bank account complete with ATM card, savings, and everything. After cashing the check, I came back to the place I had been before, made a payment, and went home to help SP cut his hair.

During this time, I hear, "I guess I'll have to try harder." I stared until clarification came. "Since the way you say it seems to point to that it's more my fault..."

My answer: "Ah. I see. Well, all I will say is this: the future can be summed up by two words."

Honestly, the only way to try harder would be to actually try.

Moving on, Tai IMed me tonight. It was random, but welcome. We've had a nice little chat and I just had to step away for a bit in order to get some things done, but maybe we'll talk again. That should be fun.

SP is here and probably wondering what's wrong with me, but like most people in my life right now, they don't know anything that's going on and for now I prefer it that way; no one here actually cares enough to know and one in particular. If they did, then it would be a good idea for them to get things moving to prove it. As I said:

Your wishes mean nothing to [me] if they don't motivate [you] enough to make a plan of action that you are willing to execute in a consistent manner. There is neither sympathy nor empathy here, so if that is what you hoped for, I am more than happy to disappoint you.

Honestly, you're not trying if I don't notice. Existing near me isn't trying. Not talking to me isn't trying. Small talk isn't trying. Being in your room with the door open thinking that I'll magically walk in isn't trying. You know what trying is? Looking at how we got here, realizing who is responsible for what, then walking in and saying "let's talk." That's trying. Until that happens, you're not even scratching the surface of making any kind of effort and I refuse to spend my life being emotionally tied to someone's intention to care or be my friend or whatever when the fact is that the reality never comes.

Talking this morning with Momo was interesting; much like talking to two people at the same time.

My nights lately are restless at best. I wake up at about 5:30 on average for no reason whatever.

Hm.

Finally, I leave this video as a more positive experience out of this day.

BTW, the first day of work was awesome. GO GEEK SQUAD!!!