Bar Room Brawl Incoming

Okay, so yesterday I was at the office. At the end of the day, he asked me if I had looked something up.

I did, but I didn't. Let me explain.

They asked me to find something to host and streaming videos. I suggested screencast.com and youtube. To me, that was that. He wanted more research than that it seems and so decided to go on a tirade about blowing the BS whistle about me working.

This I did not like. No, I wasn't going crazy working all day -- there wasn't anything to be done really -- but I do not like being placed under a light as if I am lazy. I'm not. I'm a lot of things at varying times at work:

• spacey
• off-task
• out-of-focus
• moody

but lazy I am not by any means.

Whatever. I did my work and I left.

Today when I came in (first one in the office) and sorted everything out and then started working on things, I decided to go out and get coffee. On the way out, I see the boss man. I open the door for him and head out. He asks if I'm ok.

"Yeah."

I get the coffee and come back. I work. He calls me over to work on something.

Okay, fine.

I walk over and he asks me to help him send the emails he mentioned yesterday. He asks if I'm okay or in a mood.

"No..."

He asks again. Meredith says, "No." He says, "No, I mean at me."

"No..."

It's one of those things. If you know that you've done something to piss me off, then why are you asking if I'm mad at you. If you didn't do anything, then stop asking. Don't we have work to do right now? This is no time to bother me about my feelings. I'm sitting here and not working and that's wasting time and I have a list of things to do.

Anyway...

He watches me working on the emails. He comments that I work like a machine sending the emails. I am very efficient. I finish and go back to my desk.

He comments on something I took a while to finish last week. Mind you, he complimented it yesterday. People are fickle. Entirely unnecessary even if it was joking and it may have been. I put my headphones on and he comments on this. I don't care. Later, he asks me to stop working on one thing to work on something else.

Okay, fine.

I'm working on this with my headphones on. I'm typing web addresses and reading documentation and asking around on twitter. I find some things and I attempt to test them for a bit. I ask him for the video. He comments that he would need to load it to a hard drive. Then nothing. I ask again.

"I already have it here, but I guess you didn't hear me with the headphones on."

Of course not. I can hear the typing of the not-as-loud-as-you keyboard and the entire conversation on pricing you're having, but nothing whatever about the hard drive. Again, unneeded and unnecessary. It's annoying. So much so that I want to cause him physical harm. I'm trying to just keep a cool head, get through work, and go home, but your constant need to open your mouth and breathe is bothering me and even more so when words come out.

Whatever. I retrieve the drive.

I try to do all manner of things with the video, but it will not comply with the conversion software I have.

Okay, fine.

I finally sign up for a Vimeo account to test it. I'm still waiting on my test to go through. He asked me to write something down for the phone call we were on; oddly, he had the novel idea to tap on my desk to get my attention (even though I heard the whole conversation with my headphones on and playing music anyway).

Okay, fine.

Whatever.

This has been my whole day and so far I'm okay. I only have one hour and four minutes before I can be done with this for now but I'm right at the edge of just forgetting where I am and snapping at someone. This is ridiculous.

You're stressed, I get it. I follow. Stop being a jerk. I've done nothing to you.