It's July

It's July. The end of a long hiatus from the general social scene. Well, online at least. It's been a long month out of the limelight. In a sense, I'm reluctant to go back to it. I can already image the things I will probably need to delete or remove before I even really "settle in" like a mile and some change off. I don't know how to feel about it yet. We'll see how the next week or so goes.

I've been thinking about a lot of things lately, but the one I want to bring to the surface is care and concern. I have a limited amount of things I can care about. This isn't some crazy revelation and I get that, but it's becoming more important to me where I place this concern. I'm starting to feel in a more factual way that it's being wasted with tending to every single down, sad, broken person I see. Some people just seem to genuinely enjoy being broken. I can't do anything about that. There's always problems and situations and all of this and I'm one man. Man. I'm not a god and I don't really want to be (although having comic-book styled powers could be helpful to my aims).

I need to narrow down my list and keep it narrow. The rub here is that it is a good thing to care about fewer things. I'm not advocating being blind to everything else around you, but my concern for those things around me is probably going to become significantly more passive if they are outside of my selected area of concern. I don't have the energy for it. Never did, if I think about it. I just worked and worried myself to exhaustion in giving to other people and things that it might have been better not to. I'll never know, but I'll experiment. If I feel I should widen my scope, I will. If not, I'll leave it narrow.

Also: Ianto....

That is all. Happy July.