Power

Today I'll do it backwards.

Today, I went home early-ish (3 instead of 4) because there was nothing else I could really do in the time that I had left at the office. Today in particular, one of the managers at work asked me if I was leaving (yes) and then informed me that I was supposed to stay at the office and work and not do work at home (I explained that I normally do a little bit of work at home if something comes in late). I simply nodded and said nothing that would draw another person into the discussion. Letting everything rest on me, I went home anyway. I had nothing I needed to be at the office for, so it's whatever.

Yesterday and for several days beforehand, I battled the idea of just cutting Phil loose. Maybe I should just let that go. I teeter on the edge of that option constantly, because it really is one. I'm really just tired of people being shitty and having to put up with it and call them friends, too. I can be kind to anyone. I usually am with few exceptions. I do go out of my way for my friends a bit more, but I'm kind to everyone.

Meh.

Saturday, I had a friend come over. I met him via a CL post in the strictly platonic section. So he finally makes a trip out here (plans were several weeks in materializing). He took an extra long time to come out and it was late, so to pass time, I played a game. When he arrived, I was still playing, so I played to a saving point, then went to retrieve him. When I came back, I finished the game. He said not a word after I had said a few, so I queued up another game and played that one. At this point, he decides to simply make snarky remarks instead of saying something like, "Hey, we should hang out and such since I'm here." or "That bothers me." It wouldn't have been said excepting the fact that I refuse to talk to grown-ups who have issues like they are children. So after a while of complaining about me being rude (mind you, by being passive aggressive) for making him wait in the car and playing the game too much, he then starts to explain that I never ask questions and, as such, he feels that he always has to carry the convo. Especially via text since I write short responses. My reply was that, considering how text messages are designed, writing a long text instead of talking was illogical and then asked why he would be upset that I used the texting feature in the way it was designed.

After that, I asked about being passive aggressive and why he chose that rather than simply being straightforward. I asked about his preferences and temperaments and passions. Suddenly, he was on the defensive and I was asking far too many questions. I got responses like, "Why can't you just ask normal questions?" and the like. Humans... you make no sense to me. From "Why don't you ask more questions" to "Why don't you ask fewer questions" took mere moments. He felt he was being interrogated and psychoanalyzed. When I asked if he was irritated or bothered because he was sighing and looking out of the window, he ended up saying I was paying too much attention to his body language. Suddenly, I was too attentive. Too concerned. Too involved. Not normal (whatever that meant). I guess that meant I didn't bother asking bullshit questions and I was too big a fan of just speaking my mind.

Friday, Phillip and more bitchassness to other people. Especially Sanquan (who didn't deserve it).

I think that, after a talk we just had, I'm going to just continue to bear things out with Phillip. Every now and then, he shows potential for being more than an idiot and I want to see how far that potential develops. He talked to me about bills in an adult manner and wasn't a whiny bitch, so he gets props today.

I'm getting hungry and I miss Ianto.