um... ok... your status never makes sense to me... they are always something out there, and deep... do you ever have regular thoughts or nothing to say, like the rest of us?????? just curious... :)
Why do I always see stuff like this about what I write? The comments following didn't help. Mind you, they were all made in levity and I returned responses in kind not wishing to be a jerk, but seriously. Best part? Let's see what I wrote:
Inertia is a pretty powerful force -- it's amazing the reasons we will come up with to not do something. Even when it is supremely beneficial to us. Even if it is to our peril if we don't. God, help us.
It was this that wasn't understood. It is the messages that are born out what I don't always say aloud that are so hard to understand. Something that would be easily understood by anyone that took the time to understand me instead of expecting me to be more shallow. It seems that many people do...
... or would just be happier if I were less complex. Even if you say you accept me as I am, I'm sure you (whomever you are) would be a lot happier in general if I didn't make it so hard with all of my ponderings and emotions and other complications and that's the sad part. It's so much easier to ask someone to dumb things down rather than rise to the level of understanding required to follow their line of thought. Then again, I'm stupid for even thinking it would have happened anyway.
On top of this, I'm still caught in a rather depressive undertow I can't escape to save my life. I really want out of here, but I can't see an exit. This is tiring.
I can't do this anymore. Not right now. I'll be on later.
Synx!
ReplyDeleteI don't think you need to dumb yourself down at all. If anything, you need to express yourself a bit more clearly, and perhaps not take a friend's jab so personally.
And God knows, I'm all too familiar with depressive undertows.
You just need to ride out the wave until it lessens in severity. And it will. It always does.
-Dean
@dean: I've always compared it to a storm, but you are very right -- it just needs to be ridden out or waited out.
ReplyDeleteAs for expressing myself, trust me, I can be so clear that you would feel I were made of crystals if it was so desired.
As for the jab, I wish it were just a jab. Those kinds of comments have a history in my life (a bad one) just as much as those kinds of comments from that particular person.
Don't take it as a jab. It sounds just like envious people express admiration.
ReplyDeleteI hope you ride it out soon.
Hugs from Paris
@ed: I'm feeling a bit better, thank you. Also, thank you for taking the time to read all of this.
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