So I want to punch Prince in the face. How do you not know that you need $30 for gas to get to school before you have to go and why on earth does everyone in my family feel like they can just ask me for money like I'm an ATM or the US Gov't... oh wait, the US Gov't doesn't give out money like that.
It's so annoying. This is the second time I've had to do something like this. He spent his money unnecessarily and... you know what? Whatever. I gave it to him. I gave him the money for his friend's car so he could buy gas so he could get to school today since all the financial stuff is worked out.
Fine. Whatever. You know what? I really mean this: I don't want to have anything to do with my family and money after this week. I need a new computer, but watch me not be able to buy anything at all that I need for work this week because this person will need money for the hospital or for their car payment that they won't pay me back now or ever because I have an infinite amount to draw from...
Why do I have to be this person? You know what's worse is that I find a way to. I fight for a way to. I beg, borrow, and steal to get this money for these people. What comes to me? Nothing. I simply don't hear anything until something else may be needed or whatever or the occasional connecting call that I am going to ignore my feelings and try not to indict people and motives for.
I don't want to be this angry, but the fact is that I am. I am because I'm tired and tired of being asked to do more than what is sensible to do all the time. Maybe this is part of God's plan for my life -- being called to do more than I think possible even on practical levels, but this is just retarded and annoying and I want to quit.
I really don't want to talk to my family right now. It's too much.
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