The block is still the block. There's always construction happening. People dress in interesting and cool ways.
My grandparents are still my grandparents. They're so happy to see me. Grandpa was here when I arrived. After talking to him a bit, I went to lie down and passed out for four blissful hours.
By the time I woke up, grandma was home. She and I hugged for a while; she felt sweet. It's hard to explain that, but she really did. So much love in that one act. A simple hug with tears of "I missed you. I love you. I can't believe you're finally here..." wrapped in it.
They use landline phones. They live in the same apartment. They have tons of stuff they'll never use. I caught her up on everyone back in Georgia. We ate fish and fries for dinner. Grandpa wanted grits, so had some of that, too.
We watched some of Jeopardy and Wheel of Fortune and guessed the puzzles together. It was like being 10 again. I just sat here taking in all of the moment I was in and I forgot all that I missed for a while.
Miss AJ called and wanted to see me. We're going to New Jersey for thanksgiving. Varying family asked how I was and to hear the excitement in their voices that I'm so near to them where I'm usually so far away... I don't think one week was enough to be here.
Grandma is kinda sad I'm leaving and I haven't even left yet; she asked three times if I absolutely have to go to work Monday (I do).
Some things have changed. Grandma is closer to the front of the house now so I'm in a bedroom near the back.
Other things remain intact. She still falls asleep if she stays still too long. She still spends a lot of time in the kitchen and bustles about in there a lot. She still offers me a ton of dessert after dinner (which I declined today, by the way. Maybe tomorrow).
I managed to make my way to the back, update the world on my doings, get a dance in and have commune time.
Commune time had me thinking back a few weeks and I realize that I still feel exactly as I did then. Maybe a bit more strongly. A bit more fiercely. I remember hearing, "I'm not perfect. I want you to know that..." and then, as you surrender to my commitment to love you, "Remember this moment. Remember your feelings right now."
I did and I still do. It only gets better with the time that passes. More solid.
I thought more, but that's something more to be said in person than in journal.
My eyes ache hardcore. I may opt for sleeping early. I wish I knew what to do instead of pullups since I can't do that or lift weights tomorrow. Creativity: activate!!
I also took some pictures when I got here.
That said, I want to thank, Minnellis, Ivan and Hime-chan very specifically for checking on me and chatting with me throughout my trip.
I'll get back to thinking and enjoying my reverie now. Other things happened, but I'll throw that in later.
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