Middle of the day, Alessio leaves to do stuff and Meredith starts talking to me about all the things she's dealing with and on top of that -- as if to add insult to injury -- my bitch-ass CEO is a sexist prick. Dealing with him puts her under so much stress it is unreal. In the midst of explaining everything, I asked her why she didn't just quit this job. After she answered, she simply shut her computer off and walked out of the office for the day.
I just sat here in the office, silent, absorbing it all. This is the one time I have ever hated working for this company. As I've stated before (and if I find the entry, I'll link you), this woman has looked out for me and done so much that I can't even adequately thank her for and yet she is treated like this. It took a lot for me not to quit my job. My friend told me not to let it get too much to me, but if this was a battle I needed to fight, then he would be right there with me.
I thought about it all the way home. Do I want to keep working here seeing that? I can't un-see it. I can't pretend it's not a problem. Alessio came back. I packed up at 5 and went home. I told him I was leaving. He said I sounded sad and asked if I was upset. I said, "No, I'm just tired." Yeah, I lied. I just couldn't tell him what I was really thinking at the time and moreover I needed more time to think myself.
I got home, walked around the apartment, talked to Polli for a bit about the situation and tried to leave it be for a while. I washed the dishes and Holli came over to play with the kids and all of the craziness of the day was soon forgotten for a while. It was nice and I took (and received pictures).
John and Josh wanted to hang out today. I wonder how that will go...
I'm still thinking about Brandon. I hope he's being strong where he is. Polli doesn't understand why Brandon sees me as a bad influence in his life. I don't either, but he is doing what his faith asks of him and I explained that it's not something that I have to understand... and I don't. Some parts of faith are beyond logical comprehension. "Le coeur a raisons que raison ne sait pas" I believe is the phrase.
I chilled with Polli and talked. He spent the night over. Ricky came back to the house and told us about his night out and so many other things and we all laughed and youtubed and listened to music.
Small minimalism bit, tho: I took a lot of clothes and coats out of my closet. I gave anything I had two of to Polli and gave Rickey a bunch of t-shirts as well and a belt. Why? I don't need it and I don't wear it really, so why have it? I feel better already as I was scrounging for momentum in the first place. It felt good to feel like I was moving. In that process, I found out Polli wants to go shopping with me.
Yes, please and thank you.
That night, because I wasn't bored, I left my laptop on the desk...
...and now, having prepped for the movers, I will go get coffee.
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