Happy Right Now

I want to thank all of you that have guided me through the chills, thrills, and mostly spills that have been my last few weeks. For those that haven't been following, let's just say it's been rough.

Today is a cloudy day out. Very drab, very gray. With my grey hoodie and black pants, I almost appear to have dressed just for that, but a funny feeling crept on me today when I walked in to the office. Even with the drift, even with the other things I feel off-center and upset about, I am happy right now. This week has had a couple of good happenings.

• larger paycheck than usual
• new (PC) laptop to work on
• talking to Polli about stuff
• finished The Lone Drow so I can finally start on another book
• rent paid with utils to follow
• all of you

Thank you for the encouraging comments, tweets, facebook messages, prayers and texts. I really did appreciate all of them. I have a life with some amazing people in it. I did things a little differently this week and I think it's good that I did. 

• I made a passing comment about some things I felt this week and I think I might have been heard. We'll see what happens.
• I was going to skip a weekend with a friend and just do another solo weekend, then said, "eff that, I'm going..." and told them to meet me at 6:30 this evening. We're just going to watch anime and chill and that's fine, but it's different and where I'm going, the people really want me to be there and have spared no enthusiasm in expressing that fact. I needed that from people nearby, but with that said, I would like to say this: Miranda Kuykendall is epic. Always there, always listening, always praying. Friends like her, Christa, and a few others are without price.
• I let Polli hug me. I haven't even wanted to be touched this week, so hugs were difficult, but I'm glad that I did. I needed it and he's persistent in love when he expresses it (now if we could up the frequency, that would be perfect #zero).
• I talked to a few old friends (Greg, Lance Poston) and I made a new one (Stefan). So far, I'm enjoying the talking. I'm moving out of the cave again, but a little slower. Not because I'm afraid, but because I have the time. I've been thinking about my level of response to just things in general and not all of those things need a response as quickly as I give it. Some parts of life and relationship are best handled a little slower; time reveals a lot of things.
• I bought a PC. I know: sacrilege. However, considering the pricing point (which wasn't a big factor from what I found out later) and what I need it for (development, programming, content work) a PC is a better choice as it takes fewer specifics and most things auto-install. Since I'm getting more into software and app development, it makes sense. I miss a lot of things about my MBP (Macbook Pro), but I don't think this was a bad choice and so far, I'm enjoying this new laptop a lot. This is probably the happiest moment I had this week.

So there it is: I'm happy. I don't know what's coming after and I don't care about before; I'm happy now and I'm going to ride it for all it's worth.

*checks texts*

More love... this is going to be a good day.