Good Night

I really was mellowed out last night for most of the night last night. We hung out at the Chinese restaurant with Rickey and it was chill until I read the placemat. On the placemats, there were zodiac animals (I'm the year of the dog) and of course, where the rooster appear, it said, "Cock."

Commence laughter.

To make it worse, there was marriage and friendship advice which of course included:

• marry the cock
• avoid the cock
• the cock is your best sign
• you are most compatible with the cock

So of course, I crack up laughing. Now, about my laughter... it's infectious. The problem is that no one knew what I was laughing at, so they thought I was just being random. When the other guys got up, I explained to the one person remaining what I was laughing about. When the other two returned, they started reading the placemat.  Mind you, they still didn't see what I saw, so I was still trying to refrain from laughing... unsuccessfully.

Aside from that humor, when we got home. Joe and Rickey watched the videos on my phone from the fight. Heather and I watched a few youtube videos. They were riotous. I also showed her the tone matrix and robot unicorn attack. After that, we started watching funny japanese prank videos for a bit until they all got ready to go (and I didn't want them to, but such is I guess).

After that Rickey and I talked a bit and I thought about some other stuff I had mentioned while cleaning another bathroom. I have some work ahead of me. A lot of work. Long work. I'm ready for it though. I thought about some other things related to my goals. I thought about the irony of asking someone to walk a path with me that I suppose I am destined to ultimately walk alone. I thought what it would mean to be someone other. Rickey and I talked about that last night. Sometimes, you make a decision and it changes the externals. Other times, it changes the foundations and cores. Is the core of me something I really want to change? I gather that he thinks that the core of who I am shouldn't be lost to the world, but that I should be more expressive about my inward feelings when they are not pleasant so that other people have the full range of my feelings. 

I'll be content with those and the other thoughts we shared for now.

There were a lot of other, small (and not so small) things that happened between there and sleep that made last night pretty awesome and I was happy for them. I'm glad I fell asleep when I did, though. I would have had to take a walk on the wild side otherwise.

Finally, thanks to Rebecca, I have a new song crush. I was trying to avoid it because I didn't know what it was, but I'm such an addict to songs with funky/groovy/simple basslines and other catchy tunes, so now I'm totally crushing on Afro Gunsou. The song is silly and japanese and has the most nonsensical lyrics. It's even more fun than Cake's version of Mahna Mahna.

Okay, I guess I'll get to work on reading these contracts and other paperwork and take it from there. I have a lot to think about today. I'm feeling a bit wild now, but hopefully that will settle down. I'm running aground some startling realizations about myself, but I'll .... talk about that later.