what we didn't think would happen...

I would be lying if I said I didn't know this was coming; in fact, I warned you that it would several times. Since then, little by little, the excuses and nervousness have fallen to the wayside step by step, until this moment. Up until the moment that you wrote me:

I want to be with you. I want to be with my man.

These words hadn't come up before. In fact, for a time, they were avoided. I was fine with that; rather them not be said than to have them said and not be fully meant.

Your man huh? Sounds official. You ready for that?

I just deleted all the hunk photos on my iPhone because I don't need to have them anymore. And they mean nothing to me.

I love you little spoon. Can't believe you deleted all of that because of me.

I also deleted all the hunk and nude images of man from my mac, also all the related bookmark in my web browser. Yes it is official.

I should say so.

I must admit: I don't know if I'm even fully aware of what is going on, but I am acting on what I know and what I want at this moment. I look at these messages and I see a human being that I love in the truest sense of the word. It is beyond a label -- in fact, it resists being labeled. I think about them and my body responds almost immediately (and admittedly in rather uncomfortable ways). I'm thankful for you and I want to be with you and connected to you, whatever that might mean on any level that might entail.

I love you very much and thinking about that... well, you know <3

I'm not confused at all by how I feel, although slightly surprised by it... well, I was. I'm very much relaxed about it now and enjoy it in all of its mystery. I love you. I really do...

... and this will be the most epic tale ever told ;)